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Thursday, April 20, 2006

Goodbye....

Thankyou everyone for reading my silly nothings.. some were silly.. some were sweet.. some were cute.. n some were from deep of my heart.. some giggles.. some tears.. some dreams..

May you all get best of everything in life..

posted by faith at 7:33 AM, |

Monday, April 17, 2006

Ishq.. mohabbat.. pyaar.. chahat.. love....

Ye ishq nahi aansa bas itna samajh lijiye...
ek aag ka dariya hai aur doobte jana hai...

Apne jazbaat mein naghmaat rachaane ke liye..
main ne dharkan kii tarah dil mein basaayaa hai tujhe..
main tasavvur bhii judaa’ii kaa bhalaa kaise karuun..
main ne qismat kii lakiiron se churaayaa hai tujhe..
pyaar kaa ban ke nigehbaan tujhe chaahuungaa..
zindagii men to sabhii pyaar kiyaa karte hain..
main tau mar kar bhii merii jaan tujhe chaahuungaa..

Love hurts when the person u love has no idea how much u love him..
Love hurts more when the person u love is unhappy with you..
Love hurts most when the person u love is happy with someone else..

Yes its true .. we always say n think that all we want is to see the person happy whom we love.. if with us its best.. if not even then its ok.. but this ok.. dont remain ok.. when actually it happens.. it gives so much pain n hurt.. yes believe me its not easy to see yr beloved happy with smone else.. especialy when u r sad n teary.. those giggles n laughs just tears u apart.. but as we say every human hv two sides.. good n bad.. so this a bad side n good side will always wish for the happiness rt.. coz it understands clearly .. so i wish ..i wish with all my heart that may we all have more of good side in our heart..

The more u will try to hold the sand in your palm ..more fast it'll slip away..

Yes.. dont try to rule.. be yrself n let him be himself too.. n remember change is the rule of nature.. time changes.. ppl changes... feelings changes.. expectations changes.. so can your beloved.. so do u.. its just we forget to notice changes in ourselves.. dont expect everything sh be like before always.. the less u'll expect ..the more u'll be happy.. mujhse pehli se mohabbat mere mehboob na mang..

if u love someone.. set them free.. if they comes back to you.. they'll forever be yours.. if they dont.. then they never were yours..

mmm i dont agree much on this donno may be coz its the hardest thing to do.. may be coz iam afraid that if that smone will never comes back then how am gonna survive.. but smtimes i think its a best thing to do.. if he/she truly loves you then surely will come back... else dont cry that it ended but smile that it happened... love has its own life ..u can never snatch it u can never get it in charity.. it'll happen whenever it is destined to happen n will stay as long as its destined to stay..

Love is beautiful.... fall in love n touch the sky..

posted by faith at 10:53 PM, |

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Saturday, April 15, 2006

Just something....

Yesterday i was so happy... donno the reason but was feeling good in n out... or sh i say was really smiling like myself after a long time.. i tried to figure out the reason but couldnt find any... so was little scared too.. coz i knw these days my happiness dont lasts long.. day passed n nothing much happened.. was busy in work still relaxed.. but *sigh* my instincts never fails me u knw.. anyways.. i went to bed around 2 only to wake up after horrible dream at 3 30.. a real bad dream.. i was already so disturbed n it added sone mei suhaga type.. i was crying like baby... didnt knw what to do.. so i called mom.. didnt want to tell her that iam crying at this hr of night.. but its so hard to hide anything frm her.. she was like bura sapna dekha betu.. is everything fine?
Then she said go put the scissors under your pillow n sleep... u'll be fine.. yes, i remember when i was at home she always used to do that.. and i always asked mom whats this for.. i dont believe in this.. but she always used to shut me up ..donno it works or not... but... anyways i did same last nite n tried to sleep but it doesnt wrk.. then i got up n kept all knives.. nail cutters.. scissors under my pillow.. sounds silly.. i know but i was so lonely that i just wanted to sleep in any way.. think it worked coz i slept around 2 hrs after that.. :P.. seems as i was too disturbed so i needed a heavy doze.. one was nt enough ..hehe..
..in morning i was thinking about this only how crazy it sounds scissors under pillow for good sleep.. then some other things came to my mind which she likes to do now n then..

..i remember be4 going for any party n all she used to put a black dot behind my ear.. to save me from buri nazar u know:P
..n after returning back.. sometimes a glass of water.. moving it from head to toe 7 times n then throwing it outside.. i used to tease her black dot didnt work ?n she just stare me silently.. i'll go ok ma..
..sometimes its rai n salt n then burn it..
..sometimes it was oil bathi ..she used to light it up and hang it on smthing n if some fire drops down that means nazar lagi hai.. else it'll burn normally... now this is smthing i never understand..
My bro always used to say what mom there is no nazar vazar.. dont do it on me atleast ..but he still dont know that she always did it when he was sleeping hehe..

well! moms are this way only... cute ..loving.. caring.. she is one smart mom.. but still she believes in these old granny things when it comes to her kids.. n u cant argue with her on that ..u just cant.. so never did i.. 2 reasons behind it.. one i know it works or not but it surely gives her peace of mind.. second it tells me how important iam *smiles* Love you mom..

posted by faith at 5:30 AM, |

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Thursday, April 13, 2006

Smile....

Smile takes only a moment but memory lasts forever...

So always keep smiling...

posted by faith at 6:23 AM, |

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Sunday, April 09, 2006

I wanna....

Was surfing net n came across this poem.. felt as its saying wtr i wanna say to him.. dreams ..hopes.. wishes.. aah! smtimes i irritate him by all this.. n at last he says.. ufff always dreaming.. will you do anything to make them come true.. mmm yes.. if we are together they'll come true sooner or later.. n if by chance they dont.. even then i want to see them with you.. n only you.. so here it is dedicated to my love with my cute add ons *smiles*

I wanna be with you.. in a moonlit night..
lie in your arms.. and hold you tight..

I wanna wake up by your side..
every morning.. every day of my life..

I wanna make you smile..
on silly jokes of mine..

I wanna go with you.. to places i've never been..
to see all the wonders.. that i've never seen..

I wanna dance with you..to our special song..
sway to the rhythm.. all night long..

I wanna walk with you.. on beach..
playing with waves.. when sun setting down to sleep..

I wanna laugh with you.. to a private joke..
and whisper secrets.. that no one knows..

I wanna kiss your lips.. when no one's around..
to show you the love.. that in you i've found..

I wanna dream with you.. of things yet to come..
I wanna cry with you.. when life gets too tough..

I wanna watch you playing..
with our kids.. in backyard.. in park..

I wanna share with you.. every moment of my life..
all the joy and sorrow.. till the end of time..

I wanna fall in love with you.. every day every night..
for the rest of my life..

posted by faith at 4:03 AM, |

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Friday, April 07, 2006

Silence....

Have you ever experienced a moment in your life when you just ran out of words and you go...
s i l e n t ???

.. the moment when you left your home for the first time and you look back at your parents who are worried that their son/daughter are leaving them yet happy that their child took the first step towards..

.. independence..

... the moment when the girl/boy you love most.. smiled back at you! You don't say anything.. you just smile back..

... the moment when you get better marks than you expected...

those "numb" moments of ecstasy n surprise "is that true?"...

... the moment when you are parting with your old friend

and the train has just started...

and you are standing on the door of the wagon..

waving "bye-bye" with your heart beating fast..

..the moment when a love one hurts you and you just looks at him with tears in eyes..

I had always wondered why I never said anything at those moments..

as if it was "understood"

... Love.. Joy.. Grief.. Surprise..Anger.. Hope.. Expectations.. Support...

every emotion can be expressed by silence..

Ever had those moments when you thought you were tired enough that..

you reach for your bed after dinner..

but find yourself wide awake looking at the roof of your room silently...

those moments of silence with oneself when tears flow non-stop in the darkness of night..

Silence speaks.. rt?

posted by faith at 3:00 AM, |

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Wednesday, April 05, 2006

Smarty....

posted by faith at 9:40 PM, |

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Monday, April 03, 2006

Everything passes by....

Everything in life is temporary...
darkness of the night.. or a bright day..
even sun rise is temporary.. so is sun set..
so if things are going good..
enjoy it coz it wont last forever..
and if things are going bad..
dont worry coz it wont last forever either..
everything passes by...

U can guess in which state of mind iam these days... right now iam a bunch of confused nerves... hope this phase will end soon.. n i'll find true myself again...

posted by faith at 11:09 PM, |

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Sunday, April 02, 2006

Birdy....

Ahh! it was a lazy saturday morning.. i woke up late as usual.. was sitting in balcony n sipping my tea.. a beautiful day.. was enjoying nature's beauty ..so many flowers everywhere as spring is here.. seems as every single thing is smiling n full of life.. i forgot my all worries for few seconds.. chi..chi..chi.. suddenly this birdy divert my attention ... i looked down to grassy ground... n saw a bird feeding her kids oooo cho chweet.... and an old kiddo song came to my mind... ek chidiya anek chidiya.. dana chugne beth gayi thi... hehehe... aage kya hota hai... aagee... hhmmmm i forgot... loll.. i smiled n kept watching them... then they all flew away... they were enjoying it from one tree to another.. one branch to other.. n i

was lost in thoughts.. kash mei chidiya hoti... mei bhi uad jati... door kahi... pankh hote to uad aati re ooo balma... tujhae dil ka haal dikhlati re... aint birds lucky they can go where ever they want whenever they want ..they dont need anyone's permission or visa or H1... they just flies to their destination... free from every one... sometimes i so wish to be a bird... so that i can fly high n touch the sky... n reach my love ones whenever i want... can fly away when iam sad n want to be alone... can fly away with my love without bothering about others (lolll ye usko bhi birda bana dooo ) ... a small nest filled with love ..on a green green tree... ooo la la... what else i want...
trig... tring... cell flashing... damn come back to real world faith.... *sigh*
panchi nadiya pawan ke jhonke...
koi sarhad na inko roke..
sarhade insano ke liye hai..
bolo tumne maine kya paya insa hoke...

posted by faith at 4:45 AM, |