Friday, December 29, 2006

Resolutions...

Ok.. time to make new resolutions for the new year.. but keep in mind that they are meant to be broken just like heart *smiles* .. so here are my top ten resolutions of the year..

10.. Will eat less chocolates.. yes iam just too crazy about chocs since i came back eating dairy milk everyday..

9.. Will do less shopping as i dont have much space left in my home and closet..

8.. Will donate some amount of money every month ..till now i do it occasionally..

7.. Will start enjoying and hosting parties again.. yes, i used to be a best host in group a year back.. will get back on track..

6.. Will make less calls.. damn my last bill was 8k..

5.. Will enjoy each and every moment of life.. more smiles.. less tears..

4.. Will concentrate on work more.. and work for less hours :P (when concentration is poor then you need more time to finish the task na)

3.. Will try to giveup possessiveness for love ones as it hurts me bad..

2.. Will try to speak my mind more than heart.. and listen to it.. these days outside my work place mostly my heart talks and mind listens..

1.. Doesnt matter how hard it is.. doesnt matter how much i miss someone.. i'll never allow anyone to hurt me more.. i'll move on with life and keep the memories aside..

Yeh jeevan hai.. es jeevan ka.. yahi hai.. yahi hai.. yahi hai rang roop..
thode gam hai.. thodi khushiya.. yahi hai.. yahi hai.. yahi hai chaav dhoop..
yeh na socho isme apni haar hai ki jeet hai..
ise apnalo jo bhi jeevan ki reet hai..
yeh zid chodo.. bandhan yu na todo..
har pal ek darpan hai..
yeh jeevan hai..

*smiles*
 
posted by faith at 10:10 AM, | 8 comments
Thursday, December 28, 2006

Understanding...

Sometimes or should i say most of the times understanding someone beyond a limit is painful.. its painful when you know a friend so well.. when you can figure out exactly whats going on in his head and why he is saying and doing this at the moment.. coz then you cant enjoy the moment.. you cant enjoy the company.. but you endup hurting yourself with tons of Qs.. whom answers you cant ask him.. coz you know that would hurt him.. yes, knowing that someone knows us this well.. knowing that someone can read our heart and mind so nicely can hurt oneself too.. and most of the times we end up denying things or loose our temper to prove other wrong.. but still there are some friends and dear ones whom we understand well or atleast we think so.. but on a contrary its true too that no one can understand anyone..even if one can know oneself well thats enough.. but in most cases we claim that we know someone well but forgets to understand ourselves.. many times i have seen friends arguing on oh! i know you more than you know yourself.. dont fool me.. i have said those words to someone too.. but that time we forgets that how can be it possible.. coz only a person knows himself well.. yes, you can feel the pain ..hurt.. joy ..happiness of other but you cant trace exactly whats going on in ones head..
err.. can you figure out what iam trying to say with these words?? no .. see i told you na .. no one can understand anyone.. *smiles*
but still i cant figure out understanding someone so well hurts bad or not knowing at all pains more... *sigh* whatever...


Courtesy: Random thought of a confused mind..
 
posted by faith at 10:25 AM, | 2 comments
Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Unexpected...

One beautiful evening..
he came into her life..
in an unexpected way..
and everything took a turn..
they smiled.. they laughed..
they cried.. they hugged..
they shared.. they cared..
days full of joys and sunshine..
dreams full of hopes and desires..
everything was beautiful..
yet something was missing..
and...
one fine day..
he left her silently..
in a most unexpected way..
and everything took a turn again..
she cried.. she screamed..
broken dreams.. shattered hopes..
teary days.. teary nights..
everything changed..
except..
her love for him..
which will never change..
..
..
jaha se tum mor mud gaye the..
hum ab bhi usi jagah khade hai..
hazaar baar humne mud mud ke dekha..
kahi se koi sada na aayi..
 
posted by faith at 12:47 PM, | 5 comments
Friday, December 22, 2006

Jingle bells...


Jingle bells... jingle bells.. jingle all the way...

Santa ..santa.. dont come my way.. i dont want anything today.. go to my friends place.. and make them smile.. give them gift of my love.. packed and sealed with wishes from heart.. tell them they are so precious to me..

Happy holidays to you.. enjoy your stay with family and friends.. and yes as everyone is talking about top ten these days.. let me tell you the song which is on the top of my list.. tere bin from bas ek pal.. awesome lyrics.. makes me cry each time i hear it.. and ek din fursat mei from zindagi rocks.. with a ray of hope..

Tu ek baar jo pyaar se mujhsko chuley tho har zakhm bhar jayegaa..
Zara ithzaa suun ke dewaane dilki mujhe aapne dilse lagaa...
Tere pyaar mein aise jiyain hum..
Jala hain yeh dil....yeh ankhen hue nam..

And my favorite site to enjoy nazms and ghazals.. Aligarians.com..
check this.. and this.. and all.. *smiles*

Have a nice time .. and keep smiling...

 
posted by faith at 12:12 PM, | 7 comments
Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Aaj phir...


Sham se aankh mei nami se hai..
aaj phir aapki kami se hai..

Is it ever happened to you when you are supposed to be happy but you dont feel that feeling inside you at all.. when everyone is happy for you.. but you feel as something is missing.. you just cant enjoy that moment.. the success.. as you feel incomplete.. iam feeling same.. yesterday eve after working for five years I got position of Team Lead.. leading team of eight engineers for my upcoming project.. itself its a big responsiblity and a good oppertunity to prove myself.. its just one of those moments when i miss someone most...
.
Ek tu na mila sari duniya mile bhi to kya hai...
 
posted by faith at 9:40 AM, | 6 comments
Wednesday, December 13, 2006

December...

December last month of the year.. one of my fav time of year.. time to cuddle in blankets.. and enjoy cold chilled nights.. time to enjoy gajar ka halwa.. peanuts.. yummy oranges.. one more time to enjoy lights(after diwali) .. and most of all.. time to welcome one more year.. with new hopes.. new dreams.. new promises.. and time to pack all sweet and sour experiences of the year with silky ribbons and send them to memory lane..

I love winters.. specially when i was a kid and when we used to have a power cut in nights ..wow!! i always enjoyed those chilled nights cuddling with dad and telling him my endless fairy tales.. playing dark room with dad and brother and crying loud when they both scared me with their not so scary sounds *smiles*

I used to peel peanuts in eve and always kept those nuts under my pillow thinking that will enjoy them while laying in bed.. but all the time i used to fell asleep as soon as i hug pillow.. and either brother used to steal my nuts or mom threw them in trash next morning .. and i always thought why i do this everyday... but again in eve same ... hehe silly kiddo..

Always enjoyed those christmas functions in school in which i always liked to be an angel.. hehe.. my teacher used to say lets try something else for you this year..but i was so fussy to be an angel only... i just loved that angel.. dont know why... those beautiful white wings.. a magic wand.. ooo and my entry on stage...
while shepherds watch their folks by night and see a shining star... the angel came and.... and here comes me with a big smile... *smiles*
I used to keep those wings under my bed for many days after chirstmas in hope that may be one day i'll be a real angel.. and i will make everyone's wishes come true.. hehe..

I remember big b asking me to do his chores.. when asked why? the answer was ..arey! you are an angel na.. and angels help everyone.. they dont say no.. mmm me innocent baby said ok... and doing his work and he watching me thinking how smart he is :P... and when dad told me he is teasing you budhdhu.. then me running behind him and he laughing hard and teasing me more :P

when i was in states i enjoyed snowfalls and white christmas.. ooo its just so beautiful.. there i always used to decorate tree.. loved it.. it was real fun.. parties.. friends.. smiles.. and yes gifts the most exciting part... i love giving and receiving gifts.. small small gifts filled with loads of love.. small and thoughtful gifts more close to heart than big and expensive ones *smiles*

Last december there was hope.. dreams.. love.. life.. friends.. family.. this december nights are not so cold but still its the coldest winter of my life.. neither gajar ka halwa is sweet nor there are smiles and cheer.. love has gone far away and family is incomplete too *sigh*

Vo lamhe vo pal hum barso yaad karenge.. vo mausam chale gaye to hum fariyad karenge..




 
posted by faith at 10:41 AM, | 8 comments
Wednesday, December 06, 2006

And they flew away...

Few days back.. i dropped some rice grains in balcony.. and as being lazy thought.. tomorrow maid will clean it.. next morning i woke up with chitter pitter of birds.. so much loud noise ..for few minutes i tried to sleep but finally i woke up and checked outside.. a smile caved my lips as i saw 4-5 birds eating grains and fighting in between.. i was enjoying watching them.. suddenly they all flew away except one.. she was so busy in eating that she didn't notice me.. and when she was done she looked up and chi..chi..chi.. again.. i was like ab kya?? after thinking for sec.. i put a little water in bowl with few more grains.. she ate 2-3 grains more and then finally flew away.. i watched her flying high in sky.. happy... free from all worries.. (this is what i thought)

Next morning again i woke up with same chi..chi.. i thought yesterday i didn't left any grains there.. may be they are making noise just like that.. and hugged my pillow tight to sleep for few more minutes.. but how could i with so much chi..chi.. i got up and opened door with dal rice grains and water.. like yesterday they all ate and flew away.. and then it became a part of my morning chore ..every morning they used to wake me up even before my cell alarm..

And then it was sunday morning.. it was a bad morning for me coz i wasn't sleeping well for two nights.. as i looked at watch it was 6.15 and birds were there.. donno what happened to me.. i took some grains came outside ..and as i was pouring grains in bowl i said.. jeez.. why don't you let me sleep at least for one single day?? all mornings chi..chi..chi.. hushhh.. they ate and flew away like other days...

But next morning there was no chi..chi.. no noise i woke up when my cell beeped.. and was wondering what happened to birds today.. forgot all about my words.. one more day passed no one came.. i was feeling sorry for my words.. may be they understood ..and left me.. yesterday night i intentionally left some grains in balcony and yes, today morning some birds were there.. but i know they were not the same.. i can feel it.. i want them back.. to say iam sorry.. *sigh*

Sometimes i wonder ... mmm i dont know what to say.. let me stop this here only... *smiles*


 
posted by faith at 11:24 AM, | 8 comments
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