Thursday, November 16, 2006
You have changed...
Today morning as soon as i came to work.. i logged on gmail.. and a friend buzzed me..after a long time.. was't in much mood of chatting but ok..
He.. hi
Me.. hey.. long time..how are you?
He.. not well.. hows you doing?
Me.. iam ok..
He.. so tell me busy lady..whats new..
Me.. nothing..
10 mins later..
He.. hey you know something..
Me.. what?
He.. you have changed a lot..
Me.. achaa.. tell me..
He.. yup! see now you dont call just to say hi
now you dont care when i said iam sick..
Me.. mmmm
He.. and see now you are really not interested in talking.. mailing...
what happen? you were not like this..?
Me.. nothing happened.. iam the same person.. just busy..
He.. ok.. so you want to say in 5 years i dont know your nature?
Me.. when even i dont know myself how can you know me?( irritated dont know why)
He.. look at you... OMG (silence)
I didnt say a word but was in deep thinking loop.. it wasnt 1st time that a friend is complaining about me .. in last couple of months i have heard it few times.. and always ignored..
but its true that iam getting bitter day by day.. that sweet candy gal is lost somewhere.. who used to shed tears on everyones pain.. or who used to call friends just like that to find out hows they doing... but who is responsible? only myself?
Every experience and person whom we comes across in our life.. changes something in us.. and we are never be the same person again.. but sometime the change is so minor that we cant notice but sometimes it just changes our whole self.. depends on how much we get affected by the person.. sometimes its for better sometimes its for worse.. but change is always there unknowingly..
I know the reason of my bitterness.. i want to change myself.. i cant hurt my friends more.. but so much pain ..so much hurt is there.. it will take time.. but i promise my friend.. i'll be back soon as your old candy gal with smiles.. and a few tears hugged my keyboard as i typed..
Me.. so hows your work going on..
He.. everything is good.. but iam worried for you :(
Me.. nah! iam ok.. and iam sorry too..
He.. i dont need your sorry.. just take care..
Me.. sure
Muzkuraakkar milaa karo humse..
Kuch kaha aur suna karo humse..
Bath karne se bath badthi hai..
Roz baathein kiya karo humse..
Kuch kaha aur suna karo humse..
Dhusmani se mileza kya thumko..
Dhosth bankar raha karo humse..
Kuch kaha aur suna karo humse..
Dhekh lethe hai saath pardho mein..
yu na prdha kiya karo humse..
Kuch kaha aur suna karo humse..
He.. hi
Me.. hey.. long time..how are you?
He.. not well.. hows you doing?
Me.. iam ok..
He.. so tell me busy lady..whats new..
Me.. nothing..
10 mins later..
He.. hey you know something..
Me.. what?
He.. you have changed a lot..
Me.. achaa.. tell me..
He.. yup! see now you dont call just to say hi
now you dont care when i said iam sick..
Me.. mmmm
He.. and see now you are really not interested in talking.. mailing...
what happen? you were not like this..?
Me.. nothing happened.. iam the same person.. just busy..
He.. ok.. so you want to say in 5 years i dont know your nature?
Me.. when even i dont know myself how can you know me?( irritated dont know why)
He.. look at you... OMG (silence)
I didnt say a word but was in deep thinking loop.. it wasnt 1st time that a friend is complaining about me .. in last couple of months i have heard it few times.. and always ignored..
but its true that iam getting bitter day by day.. that sweet candy gal is lost somewhere.. who used to shed tears on everyones pain.. or who used to call friends just like that to find out hows they doing... but who is responsible? only myself?
Every experience and person whom we comes across in our life.. changes something in us.. and we are never be the same person again.. but sometime the change is so minor that we cant notice but sometimes it just changes our whole self.. depends on how much we get affected by the person.. sometimes its for better sometimes its for worse.. but change is always there unknowingly..
I know the reason of my bitterness.. i want to change myself.. i cant hurt my friends more.. but so much pain ..so much hurt is there.. it will take time.. but i promise my friend.. i'll be back soon as your old candy gal with smiles.. and a few tears hugged my keyboard as i typed..
Me.. so hows your work going on..
He.. everything is good.. but iam worried for you :(
Me.. nah! iam ok.. and iam sorry too..
He.. i dont need your sorry.. just take care..
Me.. sure
Muzkuraakkar milaa karo humse..
Kuch kaha aur suna karo humse..
Bath karne se bath badthi hai..
Roz baathein kiya karo humse..
Kuch kaha aur suna karo humse..
Dhusmani se mileza kya thumko..
Dhosth bankar raha karo humse..
Kuch kaha aur suna karo humse..
Dhekh lethe hai saath pardho mein..
yu na prdha kiya karo humse..
Kuch kaha aur suna karo humse..
posted by faith at 12:00 PM, | 
3 Comments:
right said fred...friends seem so...distant at times..i have been thru ds phase a lotta times
We do get immersed in our pain and life and pesumably change.Some people change for ever, some get back to their old sweet friends. Your friends make a difference for you to get back!
I am not the best person to advice you but try to keep bitterness out of your system. Even if it means hurting some people by telling them the truth. You don't deserve this bitterness.
I am sure your smile will return and you will be back as a candy gal with smiles. It sounds like a cliche but time heals everything