Thursday, February 10, 2011

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You always said.. "I know you love me.. if you did not.. I would have stopped talking to you.." these words used to hurt me like anything.. but was happy that at least you are around.. today neither you call me nor you talk to me.. may be you think I don't love you anymore.. but you know you are wrong.. I still love you.. I really do.. I always will.. I know nothing can change that.. and I so miss you.. every moment.. everyday... and sometimes I feel like asking.. do you miss me too..? if not always then may be sometimes..? *sigh*

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Wednesday, February 13, 2008

The End....

Sooner or later we move on with life.. leave heartaches.. pain and tears behind.. try to keep happy memories and want to forget sad ones.. but everything good or bad ..smile or tear holds its special place when given from someone very special..
Aag to bujh gayi.. tapish ab bhi baki hai.. dil to toot chuka.. lekin tera khayaal ab bhi baki hai...
Same dreams.. same hope and same faith i see in someone else's eyes now.. and i promise myself not to fail again..
A New Beginning.. A New Life..

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Saturday, June 09, 2007

...

Nayi kaliya khilne ko hai..
nayi khushiya milne ko hai..
fir bhi dil dhoondta hai usi ko..
jiski chahat mei hum mitne ko hai..


chod diya tha usne..
andhero mei bhatakne ko..
ashkkon se bheegi chandni..
mei sisakne ko..
jiski ek udasi par..
ro padte the hum..
jiski ek hasi par..
khil uatthe the hum..
kyo usko kabhi yaad na aayi..
humne to ro ro kar har raat bitayi..

andhera ab chatne ko hai..
naya ek suraj niklne ko hai..
chidiyo ki chahak se..
phoolo ki mahek se..
zindagi meri muskurane ko hai..
fir bhi mann udas kyo hai..



Ae jindgi gale laga le.. hum ne bhi tere har ik gam ko gale se lagaya hai.. Hai na ..?

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Friday, March 30, 2007

There was a time...

There was a time when she wanted to talk to him.. about small small things of life.. wanted him to listen to her endless dreamz.. wanted to hear her name million times a day from him.. wanted him to smile.. laugh.. tease ..wanted him to feel how much she loves him.. wanted to take care of his things.. when she wanted to scold him for not eating and not sleeping on time.. there was a time when she wanted him to hold her hand and tell her not to worry.. wanted him to be there just for her.. to hugg her tight.. wanted to let him know that she will never leave him ..but he was busy somewhere else..
Then one day he asked ..you dont want to talk to me anymore.. are you busy?? tears filled her eyes.. yeah! a bit.. she said and smiled..


Pyaar hai ya hai saza..
ae mere dil bata..
tootta kyo nahi..
dard ka silsila..
dede koi jaan bhi agar..
dilbar pe ho na..
dilbar pe ho na..
koi asar..
kaisa hai safar wafa ki manjil ka..
na hai koi hal dilon ki mushkil ka..
dhadkan dhadkan bikhri ranjishein..
saansein saansein tooti bandishein..
kahi to har lamha honton pe fariyaad hai..
kisi ki duniya chaahat mein barbaad hai..
koi na sune sisakati aanhon ko..
koi na dhare tadapati baahon ko..
aadhi aadhi puri khwaishein..
tooti footi sab farmaaishein..
kahin shak hain kahin nafrat ki deewaar hai..
kahin jeet mein bhi shamil palpal haar hain..
ya rabba... pyaar hai ya hai saza..



There are moments in life when you miss someone.. so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real!

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Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Random thoughts...


Unconditional love is to love without expectations.. its hard to do but believe me when you are done with it.. i mean if you can stop expecting from someone.. your life will be much merrier than you can think.. coz then nothing will hurt you.. in this big world neither we do hurt every passing one.. nor we get hurt just like that by everyone.. the only people who can hurt us or whom we can hurt are the one whom we love most or who loves us most.. hurting the one you love is like hurting yourself.. even more painful than that at times.. sometimes we do that unknowingly.. but sometimes we think hurting them will give us some kinda peace just like a sweet revenge.. but we are wrong always.. if you love truly then hurting that someone can never make you happy.. it'll just make you more restless.. more guilty.. but if you are just playing with words i love you.. i care for you.. then ofcourse you will feel satisfied after hurting the one who loves you.. its not that other one cant figure out the difference.. its just that may be he/she loves you so much and forgives you every time.. but for how long?? how long anyone can let you play with their self respect.. with their pride.. ?? so always be graceful.. towards those who loves you.. always be thankful to those who care for you.. coz in this selfish world you wont find many who can love you unconditionally..

Sometimes i wonder why do we fall in love at all... and the first answer comes to my mind is ..just to hurt ourselves.. according to my experience pain is another name of love.. yet its so beautiful... its something i want to be in.. actually we fall in love coz we have a beautiful heart.. a heart who can love someone more than one loves oneself.. we are exceptionally blessed by the Almighty.. some friends say you have a great mind but a very silly sensitive heart.. i smile.. coz if caring for someone you love ( when they have broken your heart many times) called silly.. then i dont mind coz its me.. i just cant dump my feelings in one garbage bag just like that and move on.. may be they feel they are more smater but in my eyes iam a better person atleast..

True love is giving all times.. it gives such satisfaction that nothing is comparable in front of that feeling.. doing smaall small things for one you love.. a little smile on their face.. a twinkle in their eyes.. is enough to brightup many days.. a feeling that they are thinking about you doesnt matter how and in which way.. gives an immense happiness..
Its not possible that we dont expect anything at all from our beloved but try to keep the plant of expectation in the shadow of your love tree.. trim it time to time so that it cant over shadow your love.. coz true love is giving all times.. so what! if they dont understand.. dont care.. in your heart you know you did the right thing.. right..
*smiles*

Madhuban khushboo deta hai..
saagar savan deta hai..
jeena uska jeena hai..
jo auro ko jeevan deta hai..
chalti hai lehra ke pawan..
ki saans sabhi ki chalti rahe..
logo ne tyag diye jeevan..
ki preet dilo mei palti rahe..
dil vo dil hai jo auro ko..
apni dhadkan deta hai..





Sorry for silly ramblings of a lost heart and not so confused mind.. if you cant figure out whats going on ..then chill coz i dont know either.. *smiles*

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Friday, March 16, 2007

Mere meet...


Yadoon ki baucharo se jab palke bheegne lagti hai..
kitni saundhi lagti hai tab maazi ki rusvayi bhi..



Last night when i was looking for some lost paper.. a small paper in the corner of drawer.. caught my attention.. i unfold it and it was something i scribbled in one of those days when nights were long..


Tumhi to the mere priya meet..
diya tha jise maine apne..
pyaar ka vo khazana..
apnaya tha poore dil se..
par rooth gaye tum..
yu hi bina baat..
dooriya badate gaye tum..
mei hi aa jati tumhe manane..
par tumhare vo teekshn kataksh..
aur aankhon ke unkahe ulahano ne..
rok diye mere..
tumhari aur badte paanv..
kitne shool diye hai tumne..
mei gina nahi sakti..
aaj jab bhi tumhe kisi aur se..
hans kar baat karte dekhti hoo..
to khush hoti hoo..
ki mujhse na sahi..
kisi aur se hi sahi..
mohabbat to hai tumhe..
jis din pyaar ki sahi paribhasha samjhoge..
us din khud bakhud mere paas..
chale aaoge tum..
jis raah bhi aaoge..
uske darvaaze hamesha apne liye..
khule paoge tum..
phir apna loongi mei tumhe..
chupa loongi mei tumhe..
apne pyaar ke saagar mei..
ki tum phir kabhi bhi.. kahi bhi..
na bhatak sako..

And a couplet mentioned on top .. i read it somewhere in random blog hopping.. and liked it.. so due thanks to that blogger..

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Wednesday, February 14, 2007

First meeting...


While coming out of security check she smiled at the officer on duty.. and moved ahead.. excitement.. happiness was written all over her.. dressed in pink top and white ruffled skirt.. hairs tied up carelessly.. few of them romancing with her cheeks.. a smile on rosy face.. a sparkle in deep brown eyes.. she was looking beautiful than ever.. people turned their heads and gazed at her as she passed them.. lost in thoughts she was walking as she was the only one there..
She was lost in dreaming.. thinking about her beloved all the way.. they went through a lot.. misunderstanding.. pain.. hurt.. tears.. loneliness.. sleppless night.. but inspite of all one thing was true.. that was her love for him.. her faith that one day everything will be fine.. so she anticipated this invitation of destiny.. she wondered what she would do when she will see him.. would she hug him.. or shake his hand or.. she had dreamed about this moment for so long.. i'll say this.. i'll ask this.. he'll smile.. he'll laugh.. no, i wont say this.. he'll be mad.. thoughts were hitting her as waves hit the seashore in a stromy night.. she was busy in talking to herself.. chuckling and blushing in between unaware of others presence..
As she stepped off the plane.. she called him..hey! where are you.. right beside you.. someone whispered in her ear.. she turned herself and there she was in front of a tall handsome in white T-shirt and blue jeans..with a smile and twinkle in eyes.. her arms were filled with gifts and goodies for him.. she blushed as eyes met eyes.. and bit her lower lip just to make sure that she is not dreaming.. he noticed that and laughed at her innocence.. they were standing there just like that.. looking at eachother.. smiling.. and he slowly took all bags from her and dropped them on floor.. as tears filled her eyes.. he reached up and gently embraced her face in his hands and kissed her forehead.. caressed her cheek.. lost himself in her eyes and said.. I love you.. she closed her eyes.. and a tear rolled down her cheek..the first touch of her man.. so wonderful and warm.. she slowly wrapped her arms around him and softly whispered.. I love you too.. they were lost in eachother.. hugging tight.. silently.. away from all the chaos of life.. while picking up the bags she looked up at him.. and he caught her stare.. eyes said something to eyes and.. suddenly they were in their world again.. far from reality.. heart pounding.. lips quivering.. invisible to world.. his lips made their way to hers.. this was the moment they both have longed for so long.. for so many months.. the moment they kissed she felt as their soul became one.. and nothing can apart them from this moment on.. they looked at eachother and smiled.. an immence satisfaction was written all over their faces.. he took her hand in his and they walked out of the terminal.. to conquer their dreams...

From this moment life has begun..
from this moment you are the one..
right beside you is where I belong..
from this moment on..
from this moment I have been blessed..
I live only for your happiness..
and for your love I'd give my last breath..
from this moment on..
I give my hand to you with all my heart..
can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start..
you and I will never be apart..
my dreams came true because of you..
from this moment as long as I live..
I will love you, I promise you this..
there is nothing I wouldn't give..
from this moment on..
you're the reason I believe in love..
and you're the answer to my prayers from up above..
all we need is just the two of us..
my dreams came true because of you..
from this moment as long as..
I live I will love you, I promise you..

Attention Please.. coz of heavy snow strom in NY city.. southwest airlines flight no. 232 has been cancelled.. passengers are requested to leave.. she picked up her bags and came out of the terminal.. her ipod still playing.. from this moment... *sigh*

Happy Valentines Day Everyone!! May you enjoy the day with one you love.. with the one who is the one for you only...!!! ....*smiles* Yes, Love is beautiful..


Enjoy the beautiful video by shania twain "from this moment.."





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Sunday, February 11, 2007

Still in love...


Love is in the air.. as V-day is coming near.. one can see the excitement everywhere.. in malls.. hallmark shops.. gift shops.. long booking list of restaurents.. and ofcourse on many faces.. it was one of my favourite days too till last year... but this year i think i have grown up.. earlier i used to wait for this day... to get those red.. pink cards.. to enjoy those chocs.. well those were college days.. but yes ofcourse i still dream of a sweet romantic date with my man(no idea where's he :P) on V-day..

When someone asked me to spend this 14th eve with him ..i wasnt sure what to say.. i hate disappointing someone.. iam just tired of myself.. its not like i dont want to go.. or i dont like the company.. its just.. at this moment of time i want to fall in love with myself.. myself whom i have lost somewhere in between those tears.. and one have to love oneself before passing it on to others right.. just like a smile.. if you want to see smiling faces.. you have to smile first.. mere mazi ke zakhm to bhar jane de.. fir tujhae bhi ae dost mei apna samjhoongi .. someone said those lines to me long back.. and words changed my life.. today i uttered those lines silently in my heart and sent a sorry card to a friend.. i hope he'll understand..

Was listening to a friend's story who broke up six months back.. suddenly i said ..you know what.. you still love him.. and she was like.. you crazy gal we split long back.. mmm ye so what.. is loving someone and not loving someone is in our hands? things happen just like that.. and i dont believe that breaking up means you will stop loving that person.. as far as i think is once in love is always in love.. how can you just say oh! i dont feel like that now.. may be iam wrong but those who were close to heart will always be special doesnt matter how much pain they have given.. moving on is something different.. it doesnt mean you have forgotten.. its just you suppress your feelings coz you know its not gonna work.. she was listening to all my illogical(for her) blabbering.. and asked ok.. how can you say iam still in love with him.. well.. its simple.. You are still in love if...

* When you offer prayers and wish for his/her happiness first..

* When you find yourself dialing his/her number and not calling..

* When you still waits for his/her mails doesnt matter how short they are..

* When you miss him/her just like that..

* When an old fight makes you smile and an old sweet moment makes you cry..

* When doesnt matter how many friends you have now.. you still look around to get the glimpse of him/her..

* When you silently walk through the lanes where you can find his/her footprints..

* When you talks to common friends just to find out about him/her..

* When he/she is the first in morning and last in night you think about..

* When you read their fortune first then yours..

* When you wish to hear from him/her once..

* When you cant stop your tears when he/she calls you but you pretends as nothing affects you..

* When you miss him/her when you are happy.. and when he/she is sad..

* When incidents of past when they got hurt physically.. emotionally still makes you cry..

Then believe me you are still in love..

Juda hoke bhi.. tu mujhme kahi baki hai..
palko mei ban ke aansoo tu chali aati hai..
kaise zinda hoo zindagi.. bin tere mei..
ab to aadat se hai mujhko aise jeene mei..
saath mere hai tu har pal.. shab ke andhere mei..
paas mere hai tu.. ujle savere mei..
dil se dhadkan bhula dena..aasan nahi hai..
ab to aadat se hai mujhko aise jeene mei..


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Monday, February 05, 2007

Ek chup si...

Bas ek chup si lagi hai.. nahi udas nahi.. kahi pe saans ruki hai.. nahi udas nahi.. bas ek chup si lagi hai.. waqt shayad ruka sa hai.. lamha kuch bikhra sa hai.. nahi udas nahi.. bas ek chup si lagi hai.. suna gagan hai.. mausam bhi nam hai.. nahi udas nahi.. bas ek chup si lagi hai.. koi nahi saath hai.. na tere aane ki aas hai.. nahi udas nahi... bas ek chup si lagi hai..

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Thursday, January 25, 2007

Yu hi...


Ab khushi hai na koi gam rulane vala..
humne apna liya har rang zamane vala..
usko rukhsat to kiya tha.. mujhae maloom na tha..
sara ghar le gaya.. ghar chod ke jane vala..

Socha nahi achcha bura.. dekha suna kuch bhi nahi..
maanga khuda se raat din.. tere siva kuch bhi nahi..
dekha tujhae.. socha tujhae.. chaha tujhae.. pooja tujhae..
meri khata meri wafa.. teri khata kuch bhi nahi..
ahsaas ki khushboo kaha.. aavaaz ke jugnu kaha..
khamosh yaado ke siva.. ghar mei raha kuch bhi nahi..

Ae mohabbat tere anjaam pe rona aaya..
jane kyo aaj tere naam pe rona aaya..
yu to har sham ummedoin mei guzar jati thi..
aaj kuch baat hai jo sham pe rona aaya..
kabhi taqdir ka matam kabhi duniya ka gila..
manzil-e-ishq mei har gam pe rona aaya..
jab hua zikr zamane mei mohabbat ka..
mujhko apne dil-e-nakaam pe rona aaya..

Kabhi kisi ko mukammal jaha nahi milta..
kahi zami to kahi aasma nahi milta..






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