Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Sooner or later we move on with life.. leave heartaches.. pain and tears behind.. try to keep happy memories and want to forget sad ones.. but everything good or bad ..smile or tear holds its special place when given from someone very special.. Aag to bujh gayi.. tapish ab bhi baki hai.. dil to toot chuka.. lekin tera khayaal ab bhi baki hai...Same dreams.. same hope and same faith i see in someone else's eyes now.. and i promise myself not to fail again..A New Beginning.. A New Life.. Labels: Close to heart, Love, Personal
posted by faith at 3:57 PM, |
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
She was busy in tearing papers.. cards.. letters on which she used to scribble her thoughts.. her dreamz.. was making sure that she wont left any memory alive.. may be doing this will help her in moving on she thought.. she deleted all mails.. messages.. and took a look at his picture in her hand.. no tears .. no sighs.. she was absolutely fine.. thought may be everything will be easier now.. she took a ride to the past.. enjoyed each and every moment of time.. and then peacefully crashed herself on bed.. thinking she have done it finally.. closed her eyes.. and there he was.. but she deleted everything right? then? well deleting physically doesnt mean its easy to erase from heart too.. only time can fade that pain away.. tears hugged her pillow tight.. after few minutes she got up.. picked up all the peices of paper.. kept them in a box.. retrieved all mails and messages and shifted them to a folder.. sealed them with a kiss ..and smiled.. but promised herself not to touch them again..tere khushbuu men base khat main jalaataa kaise.. pyaar men duube huye khat main jalaataa kaise.. jin ko duniyaa kii nigaahon se chhupaaye rakhaa..jin ko ik umr kaleje se lagaaye rakhaa..jin ko, jinhen iimaan banaaye rakhaa..
tune duniyaa kii nigaahon se jo bachkar likhe.. saalahaasaal mere naam baraabar likhe.. kabhii din men to kabhii raat men uthakar likhe..pyaar men duube huye khat main jalaata kaise.. tere haathon ke likhe khat main jalaata kaise..And it was a beautiful morning.. misty eyes.. but a fresh smile.. she knew it that she have to leave the past behind.. and now its the time.. coz its what.. we call life.. hai na.. Yeh jo zindagi ki kitaab hai ye kitaab bhi kyaa kitaab hai..
kahin ek haseen saa Khvaab hai kahin jaan-levaa azaab hai..
kahin chhaanv hai kahin dhoop hai kahin aur hi koi roop hai..
kayi chehare is mein chupe hue ik ajeeb si yeh naqaab hai..
kahin kho diyaa kahin paa liyaa kahin ro liyaa kahin gaa liyaa..
kahin cheen leti hai har Khushi kahin meharabaan behisaab hai..
kahin aasoon ki hai daastaan kahin muskuraahaton ka bayaan..
kahin barqaton ki hai baarishen kahin tishnagii behisaab hai..Yeh jo zindagi ki kitaab hai ye kitaab bhi kyaa kitaab hai ...Kuch pakar khona hai.. kuch khokar pana hai..jeevan ka matlab to.. aana aur jaana hai..And as moving on is life.. i have to move on from here too.. coz i nurtured this place with my emotions.. most of the posts were reflection of my feelings.. love ..care.. tears.. dreamz.. pain.. hope.. and faith.. so many memories hidden behind the words.. Ye jagah aur uski khamoshi... pyaar ke naam...pyaar bahut karte hai tumse... ishq hai tu hamara sanam...
May be i'll write again.. may be not.. but somewhere else.. Thanks to all of you for everything..Labels: blog, Close to heart, Personal
posted by faith at 12:21 PM, |
Saturday, June 23, 2007
Sometimes silence is the best thing to do.. keeping your mouth shut and fingers crossed at the right time shows ones strength and self control..And it was something she used to feel proud.. her self control.. she was never the one who can say anything in pulse just to hurt someone.. but this time she failed.. well.. seems as she have forgotten her power of silence..Zindagi ke safar mei guzar jate hai jo makam... vo fir nahi aate...
Always leave your love ones with nice words.. else.. trust me.. pain will be unbearable..Labels: Personal
posted by faith at 9:16 PM, |
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Ek din fursat mein thaamein haath hamare..
le gayi uss dagar pe jahaan rehti hai bahaaren..
bewajah lag rahi thi jab talaash hamari..
ek khushboo uthi aur rutt badal gayi saari..
saamne toh khade the faila ke baahen..
jaise har dard mera khud mein roke samaaye..
ek din fursat mein thaamein haath hamare..
le gayi uss dagar pe jahaan rehti hai bahaaren..
aaj phir jeene ki tammna hai....Labels: Music, Personal
posted by faith at 10:01 AM, |
Saturday, June 09, 2007
Nayi kaliya khilne ko hai..nayi khushiya milne ko hai..fir bhi dil dhoondta hai usi ko..jiski chahat mei hum mitne ko hai..chod diya tha usne..andhero mei bhatakne ko..ashkkon se bheegi chandni..mei sisakne ko..jiski ek udasi par..ro padte the hum..jiski ek hasi par..khil uatthe the hum..kyo usko kabhi yaad na aayi..humne to ro ro kar har raat bitayi..andhera ab chatne ko hai..naya ek suraj niklne ko hai..chidiyo ki chahak se..phoolo ki mahek se..zindagi meri muskurane ko hai..fir bhi mann udas kyo hai..Ae jindgi gale laga le.. hum ne bhi tere har ik gam ko gale se lagaya hai.. Hai na ..?Labels: Close to heart, Love, Personal
posted by faith at 3:18 PM, |
Monday, April 02, 2007
Arey.. feel free to tell me if you are interested in someone.. she said..
nah.. nothing like that..
then.. why so much delay?? you are one intelligent girl.. i dont think i have to tell you that its the right time..
yeah.. i know.. but dont we need a guy.. (tries to be naughty)
arey.. you just say yes.. there will me many.. i know 3-4 very good guys..
sigh.. mmmm you wont understand.. leave it na bua..
arey.. ok tell me what type of guy you want..
type???
i mean.. in India or in USA ..same profession or doctor.. or ..
i dont know..
dont be silly..
iam like that only.. laters bua.. (end of conversation)
After few hours..
was watching antakshari one of my fav show.. hummimg..
dad.. so what you have thought?
me.. about??
dad.. marriage..
me.. haan karni to hai.. looks at dad smiling.. (thinking God aaj kya hua hai sabko)
dad.. will you ever be serious.. its high time and you are planning to go back too.. then i wish that you better atleast get engaged..
me.. ok what if i dont want to go back..
dad.. even then you have to move on with life..
me.. mmmm
dad.. see this guy i got his proposal.. (gives a picture with a paper)
reads the biodata and smiles..
dad.. seems good to me.. what you say?
me.. i dont know.. a stranger.. totally unknown..
dad.. ok then lets think about known ones.. tell me anyone..
me.. nooooat the same time cell beeped..hey whats up..me.. searching for a banda for myself..he laughs.. really?? so you moving on finally..me.. shud up..laugh continues.. banda hazir hai dhoondne ki kya zaroorat..me.. you just shud up.... screams.. had hai mazak ki..ok baba.. tell me what type of guy you want..me.. eh!!! dont know.. byeeeee..The end...Phewww.. i think no one has anything better to do these days.. dad.. bro.. bua.. or a friend everyone just want to know one answer.. what kinda guy i want.. the hottest question of the hot summer.. everywhere.. when i goes to some family gatherings i can feel some eyes piercing through me.. some whispers.. those typical aunties.. those uncles with ever ready proposals in hand.. and in last only one Q comes my way.. what type of guy you want.. and if i'll say anything then the reaction will be... haiiii see this gals expectations :P kya nakhre hai and wtr.. ufff does it really matter?? can i get whatever i want? leave me aside ..can anyone get what they want ..the type of person they want in their life?? and more the type of person we want.. do they really exists in this selfish world?? no.. its not about choice.. its about how much are you ready to compromise in your life.. may be there are few who gets their dream lovers.. or that kinda life.. iam not that much lucky.. still yes, iam ready to compromise with life.. but dont ask me what i want.. coz at this point ..i really dont know.. may be i'll tomorrow.. *smiles*And when i thinks hard on what i want then this comes in my mind..ache ghar ka ladka ho par..na haklata ho..na haklata ho na peekar aata ho..na peekar aata ho na vo paan chabata ho.. na paan chabata ho vo na dil fek ke aata ho..na dil fek ho vo na dil tod jata ho.. kuch kaam to aata ho..acha khana vo banata ho..bacho ko khoob hasata ho..mere aansoo vo pochta ho..mujhae shopping vo karata ho..aur der se sota ho par jaldi uath jata ho...hai koi aisa???? to lekar aao jaldiiiiii :D
manchaha ladka.. kahi koi mil jaye..
to apna bhi es saal.. shadi ka irada haiii :P
*smiles*
Labels: Just like that, Personal
posted by faith at 5:12 PM, |
Friday, March 30, 2007
There was a time when she wanted to talk to him.. about small small things of life.. wanted him to listen to her endless dreamz.. wanted to hear her name million times a day from him.. wanted him to smile.. laugh.. tease ..wanted him to feel how much she loves him.. wanted to take care of his things.. when she wanted to scold him for not eating and not sleeping on time.. there was a time when she wanted him to hold her hand and tell her not to worry.. wanted him to be there just for her.. to hugg her tight.. wanted to let him know that she will never leave him ..but he was busy somewhere else..
Then one day he asked ..you dont want to talk to me anymore.. are you busy?? tears filled her eyes.. yeah! a bit.. she said and smiled..Pyaar hai ya hai saza..ae mere dil bata..tootta kyo nahi..dard ka silsila..dede koi jaan bhi agar..dilbar pe ho na..dilbar pe ho na..koi asar..kaisa hai safar wafa ki manjil ka..na hai koi hal dilon ki mushkil ka..dhadkan dhadkan bikhri ranjishein..saansein saansein tooti bandishein..kahi to har lamha honton pe fariyaad hai..kisi ki duniya chaahat mein barbaad hai..koi na sune sisakati aanhon ko..koi na dhare tadapati baahon ko..aadhi aadhi puri khwaishein..tooti footi sab farmaaishein..kahin shak hain kahin nafrat ki deewaar hai..kahin jeet mein bhi shamil palpal haar hain..ya rabba... pyaar hai ya hai saza..
There are moments in life when you miss someone.. so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real!
Labels: Close to heart, Love, Personal
posted by faith at 1:43 PM, |
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
As soon as i entered the house.. my eyes were looking for him.. He about whom i have heard much.. that he is very smart.. he is intelligent.. he is this.. that.. what not.. everyone gave me a big welcome smile.. but i was sreaching for him.. his mother caught me and said that he is taking bath.. i smiled and got busy in talking to my friend and all.. 45 minutes passed.. he was still in.. i grabbed one magazine.. was reading an article about Aish.. "she is beautiful" umm yeah.. i looked up and there he was ..a handsome boy.. what a cute hair style he had.. i mean so neat.. oh! thats why you took so much time.. i thought and smile.. we talked about some nice things.. initially he was a bit uncomfortable with me.. but as time passed i hardly had anything to say.. was listening to his endless blabbering.. and was thinking gosh! do boys talk this much too.. my cheeks were paining.. it was so hard to smile more.. so i asked my friend can we go out for sometime and we left the house.. next morning on breakfast table.. his mom was busy in telling me a lot about him.. what he likes.. what not.. his faourite food.. actors.. movies.. and what not.. i was listening and staring at him.. he has a cute smile i must say :P his mom said that he was heart broken when Aish and Abhi got engaged.. coz he is a big fan of her and thinks she is the most beautiful girl.. and i laughed.. donno why.. he gave me a bad look and then blushed a little and got up.. i was like damn! then i went to his room just to pacify him and he was looking at Aish's poster.. iam sorry i said and sat beside him.. after a while he smiled and said you know now i dont like Aish that much.. really??? Yes.. will you marry me?? whattttt ?? it was so hard to control my laugh but i did and asked you want to marry me?? Yes will you? woo hoo!!! this handsome guy proposed me.. i was smiling ear to ear.. ok but first tell me why you want to marry me.. i said.. coz you are more beautiful than Aish.. OMG really?? yes you laugh bahut zor se.. i like it he added.. i was so happy.. and gave him a big tight hugg....
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..After a minute i said you know you are so cute and adorable.. am i handsome?/ he asked.. yes the most handsome guy i said .. so you will marry me.. hahaha i laughed.. and his eyes twinkled and he ran outside to tell her mother.. about his latest bride to be :PSo this was handsome adorable Dhruv.. whom i met in Delhi last weekend.. 4 year old boy who proposed me ...*smiles*Labels: Just like that, Personal
posted by faith at 3:10 PM, |
Friday, March 23, 2007
She was sipping her morning tea.. smiling and reading the headlines.. dad came and picked his cup.. took first sip and....... ohhh.. she looked up and asked..
what happen?
why salt instead of sugar..
what?? is that so.. she was surprised
and taste it again..
he was right..
She was trying to brush her wet hairs.. suddenly she felt something is wrong.. her hairs dont feel clean and nice as always.. something struck her and she rushed towards bathroom.. and.. her shampoo was smiling on shelf while the conditioner lying on floor.. jeez.. have to wash hairs again.. she gave herself a little slap..
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She was already late for her early morning meeting.. was about to leave the house.. dad called.. phone.. tell him/her to call later.. she said.. again dad said.. arey! take your cell.. now she stopped and looked at her hand.. damn! she was carrying cordless instead of her cell... OMG..
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What a day! just one of its kind :D
Labels: Just like that, Personal
posted by faith at 11:46 AM, |
Monday, March 19, 2007
She was waiting for a call.. looking at her cell again and again.. he said that he'll call her after an hour.. and its been one and a half hour already.. finally she felt the vibration in her hand.. a smile curved her lips.. she was about to press the button suddenly a thought crossed her mind and she stopped herself.. 1..2..3..4 rings.. now she picked it up.. hey iam sorry ..you must me waiting.. was little busy.. someone said from other side.. me waiting?? ohhh i almost forgot about the call.. was a bit occupied in some work.. she winked at herself in mirror.. bad girl she thought.. and chuckled.. there was a silence for a second on other side and then she heard a deep sigh.. naughty girl she is.. :P *smiles*Labels: Just like that, Personal
posted by faith at 7:29 PM, |
Friday, March 16, 2007
Yadoon ki baucharo se jab palke bheegne lagti hai..
kitni saundhi lagti hai tab maazi ki rusvayi bhi..Last night when i was looking for some lost paper.. a small paper in the corner of drawer.. caught my attention.. i unfold it and it was something i scribbled in one of those days when nights were long.. Tumhi to the mere priya meet..diya tha jise maine apne..pyaar ka vo khazana..apnaya tha poore dil se..par rooth gaye tum..yu hi bina baat..dooriya badate gaye tum..mei hi aa jati tumhe manane..par tumhare vo teekshn kataksh..aur aankhon ke unkahe ulahano ne..rok diye mere..tumhari aur badte paanv..kitne shool diye hai tumne..mei gina nahi sakti..aaj jab bhi tumhe kisi aur se..hans kar baat karte dekhti hoo..to khush hoti hoo..ki mujhse na sahi..kisi aur se hi sahi..mohabbat to hai tumhe..jis din pyaar ki sahi paribhasha samjhoge..us din khud bakhud mere paas..chale aaoge tum..jis raah bhi aaoge..uske darvaaze hamesha apne liye..khule paoge tum..phir apna loongi mei tumhe..chupa loongi mei tumhe..apne pyaar ke saagar mei..ki tum phir kabhi bhi.. kahi bhi..na bhatak sako..
And a couplet mentioned on top .. i read it somewhere in random blog hopping.. and liked it.. so due thanks to that blogger..
Labels: Close to heart, Love, Personal, poetry
posted by faith at 11:17 AM, |
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
A new look.. after a long time or should i say a very first time after creating this space i changed my template.. i was so in love with that girl waiting for someone.. lost in memories.. but we all have to move on with life ..dont we.. cant wait forever for anyone.. when we know they will never gonna come back.. donno why it took so much of me to change this template.. may be coz iam too silly to get attached with everything so deeply.. *my poor ultra sensitive heart* :P anyways, today i want to move towards a new destination.. a new path still lost in mist though.. a hope that sun will shine and make me smile.. or i'll be lost forever in these memory lanes.. donno.. but still i wish for a new ray of hope.. new smiles.. a new twinkle in eyes.. *smiles*
Kisii ke vaasate raahein kahaan badalatii hain..
tum apane aap ko Khud hii badal sako to chalo..
Labels: blog, Personal
posted by faith at 4:15 PM, |
Monday, March 05, 2007
Sometimes i dont need any reasons to smile as always i dont need any reasons to cry :P but guess what.. i have so many reasons to smile today.. and iam smiling.. yes, iam happy today.. feeling good from inside after a long long time.. coz...
.. First thing in morning.. i saw a new born black kitten.. gosh! so cute.. i was so tempted to pick her up but was scared of her mother so dropped the idea..
.. Then saw a year old baby running away from her mother and giggling.. sweet na.. well! it was a beautiful morning and who wants to stay in *smiles*
.. Then i saw a quirk smile on someone's face after a long time.. and i jumped.. yes, some smiles really means a lot... dont they ?
.. Then a loving friend sent me a beautiful song ..and i smiled on his thoughtfulness.. sometimes small small sweet gestures speak volumes.. which even words cant explain..
.. And finally the first release of my new project is almost done.. which ruined my festive spirits.. as i was working over the weekend.. but still iam happy..*smiles*
A beautiful day indeed.. and i wish for many more like this :D
Zindagi ek safar hai suhana.. yaha kal kya ho kisne jana..
haste gaate jaha se guzar.. duniya ki tu parvah na kar..
muskurate hue din betana.. yaha kal kya ho kisne jana..
So always keep smiling...
Labels: Personal, Random ramblings
posted by faith at 3:47 PM, |
Thursday, March 01, 2007
Saw this on
Starry's blog.. interesting *smiles*
Labels: Just like that, Personal
posted by faith at 11:25 AM, |
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Apni marzi se kaha apne safar ke hum hai.. rukh hawaoo ka jidhar ka hai.. udhar ke hum hai..
Faith turned one on 24th feb.. i created this space just to pour out some thoughts.. some tears.. pain.. few smiles ..dreamz.. hopes.. Thanks to all of you who read and commented.. thanks to all who passed by silently..
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Tu mera sahara hai.. mei tera sahara hoo.. aankhoon mei samandar hai.. aashaoon ka pani hai.. zindagi aur kuch bhi nahi teri meri kahani hai..
Labels: Personal
posted by faith at 4:19 PM, |
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Thanks to those who wished me at midnight..
Thanks to those who wished me in morning..
Thanks to those who wished me silently in heart..
Thanks to those who will wish me after reading this..
Thanks to those who forgot this day..
Thanks to those who remembers it but pretends to forget..
Thanks a lot everyone !!!
Birthday's are always special.. this year i missed my friends so much.. after a long long time this day passed so silently.. without much excitement.. in between some smiles and few tears.. some unexpected surprise knocked my door.. whereas someone dearest forgot the day completely.. o maajhi re o maajhi re
apana kinaara nadiya ki dhaara hain o maajhi re
saahilon se behne wale kabhi suna to hoga kahi
kaagazo ki kashtiyon ka kahi kinaara hota nahi
o maajhi re maajhi re
koi kinaara jo kinaare se mile wo apana kinaara hain
o maajhi re
paaniyon mein beh rahen hain kayi kinaar toote huye
raasto mein mil gaye hain sabhi sahaare toote huye
koi sahaara majh dhaare mein mile to apana sahaara hain
o maajhi re apana kinaara nadiya ki dhaara hain
Labels: Personal
posted by faith at 12:03 PM, |
Thursday, February 08, 2007
She loves skipping stairs.. and as she was busy in doing so.. suddenly someone called her and the next moment... aaaahhh!!! ouchhhhh!! she lost her balance and screamed with pain.. tears rolled down.. she tried to stand up but failed.. ankle twist.. uff it hurts bad.. in few minutes her ankle swelled.. she is one naughty girl.. her dad told the doctor ..she was like dad you saying as iam a little girl.. yes you are.. ok, then give me a choc.. well! i have a lolipop ..what? and they laughed.. ouchhh!! :( Inspite of all this pain iam humming this beautiful song today..Dil deevana ..bin sajana ke.. maane na.. ye pagla hai.. samjhane se.. samjhe na..Enjoy the video.. Labels: Personal
posted by faith at 5:25 AM, |
Monday, February 05, 2007
Bas ek chup si lagi hai.. nahi udas nahi.. kahi pe saans ruki hai.. nahi udas nahi.. bas ek chup si lagi hai.. waqt shayad ruka sa hai.. lamha kuch bikhra sa hai.. nahi udas nahi.. bas ek chup si lagi hai.. suna gagan hai.. mausam bhi nam hai.. nahi udas nahi.. bas ek chup si lagi hai.. koi nahi saath hai.. na tere aane ki aas hai.. nahi udas nahi... bas ek chup si lagi hai..Labels: Love, Personal
posted by faith at 12:58 PM, |
Monday, January 29, 2007
Sunday was a pink day for me.. i bought pink and pink only *smiles* yes, with a slight variation of shades ofcourse.. a pink top.. pink and white sweater.. pink and grey chudidar and kurta.. pink bangles.. pink and white crystal ear rings.. and pink hair pins.. and yes pink nail color :P and few days back i bought one pink chiffon saree with white bead work.. ooo lala.. Pink is one of my fav colors.. to have atleast one pink dress in wardrobe is must for me.. baby pink.. its just so cool.. girly and soft and... baby pink and white is my fav combo.. i like pink with sky blue or grey too.. You can find all colors in my wardrobe.. yes i enjoy all the hues of the rainbow.. but still its ruled by.. blue.. white.. black.. and pink.. Iam just happy today.. reason unknown.. just smiling and humming a very old song..Gori tera gaanv bada pyaara.. mei to gaya maara..
aake yaha re.. o aake yaha re..
uspe roop tera saada.. chandrama jyo aadha..
aadha java re..
Labels: Music, Personal
posted by faith at 5:06 PM, |
Thursday, January 25, 2007
Ab khushi hai na koi gam rulane vala..
humne apna liya har rang zamane vala..
usko rukhsat to kiya tha.. mujhae maloom na tha..
sara ghar le gaya.. ghar chod ke jane vala.. Socha nahi achcha bura.. dekha suna kuch bhi nahi..maanga khuda se raat din.. tere siva kuch bhi nahi..dekha tujhae.. socha tujhae.. chaha tujhae.. pooja tujhae..meri khata meri wafa.. teri khata kuch bhi nahi..ahsaas ki khushboo kaha.. aavaaz ke jugnu kaha..khamosh yaado ke siva.. ghar mei raha kuch bhi nahi..
Ae mohabbat tere anjaam pe rona aaya..jane kyo aaj tere naam pe rona aaya..yu to har sham ummedoin mei guzar jati thi..aaj kuch baat hai jo sham pe rona aaya..kabhi taqdir ka matam kabhi duniya ka gila..manzil-e-ishq mei har gam pe rona aaya..jab hua zikr zamane mei mohabbat ka..mujhko apne dil-e-nakaam pe rona aaya..Kabhi kisi ko mukammal jaha nahi milta..kahi zami to kahi aasma nahi milta..Labels: Close to heart, Love, Personal
posted by faith at 4:40 PM, |
